You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are ... and that's OK.
And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself.
Because you are important. No one has the right to break your heart or make you cry.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.


i will never betray myself, i'll never settle for less.

~Sadelena

i remembered asking him, if i pray 5 times a day and if i'm still enjoying life in an unholy kinda way, will my efforts be wasted?

not praying is already one sin of its own.

Prayer is the ever-flowing spring which renews the believers' energy and gives them new strength. They are then able to persevere for as long as it takes to achieve their goals.
And prayer makes them realise that at the end of the day, god is above-all, mightier than them or anyone else for that matter.

~Sadelena

O gosh, I miss Sadelena.
HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BABE!!!

I think I might survive this whole thing after all and that it's not just a delusion in my head that I'm not being fully myself, that only part of me is drifting from one place to another most parts of the day. I might survive all this. Maybe where I am, what I've been through has been a good thing because at least it ensures that I'm not having too much fun. It pinches me, makes sure that my goals are focused. I really think that secretly, everything falls into order and everything falls into place just as long as we're self-aware. It's like King Lear. HOHO. So I'm not worried.

Dear Fadilah sayang,
I am NOT TOO CAUGHT UP with my JC life okay! I love you girls all so much. Seriously, love is a decision I think. HOHOs. I keep wishing, so many times in my life that I had more time, more time. Who cares if Singapore is a tiny island? What's the point if I can't meet you so often? I think things would have been so very different if we met up often though. I think my priorities would have shifted. But still, in that space and time where I have often thought about the girlfriends who I long to spend time with, my love for you all has never wavered. Tee hees.

I met up with her just now and spent only about one hour with her and I couldn't meet the other netballers on time cos they went in to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic. I just couldn't bring myself to watch a movie on a Sunday due to time and financial constraints. Already blew the budget with Guitar matters (Nibori guitarists, Gown, Shoes, Concert). The good thing is that the gown is coming on Tuesday and I'm so EXCITED!!!! GAHH hahaha. Hope it turns out well and that it'll look flattering on us. HOHOS.







I can't wait for after SYFs really. Even when all the school days end and all the fun in school does too, Love, remains the same.

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