21. To find my place

Scientifically updated version of 'Twinkle Twinkle Little Star'

12:16 AM Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I took this from Wikipedia.

"The original verses are from 1806, more than a century before the foundations of Stellar Astrophysics were established. Some astronomers ^[12] then attempted to update the verses of the song, taking into account that nowadays Stellar structure and Stellar Evolution are mature sciences.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

I know exactly what you are

Opaque ball of hot dense gas

Million times our planet's mass

Looking small because you're far

I know exactly what you are

Fusing atoms in your core

Hydrogen, helium, carbon and more

With such power you shine far

Twinkle twinkle little star

Classed by their spectroscopy

Oh, Be A Fine Girl Kiss Me

Bright when close and faint when far

I know exactly what you are

Smallest ones burn cool and slow

Still too hot to visit, though

Red stars dominate by far

Twinkle twinkle little star

Largest ones are hot and blue

Supernova when they're through

Then black hole or neutron star

I know exactly what you are

Our Sun's average as stars go

Formed 5 billion years ago

Halfway through its life so far

Twinkle twinkle little star

Forming from collapsing clouds

Cold and dusty gas enshrouds

Spinning, heating protostar

I know exactly what you are

Often forming multiply

Clusters bound by gravity

Open type or globular

Twinkle twinkle little star

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Reading this makes me think that... you would like this. And I can't stop myself from thinking that. Who else would indulge in humours such as these? ahha. mb I'll try.

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12:58 AM Thursday, June 23, 2011

an estate a day.

hmm...

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1:42 AM Monday, June 20, 2011

(mod)est.

ok tak?

:D

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ok this is what i have to do by end of June

10:40 PM Saturday, June 18, 2011

Congratulations Safiah for clearing out all the crap and detoxifying your room! :) :) :)

You now have the guilt free pleasure of arranging dates with your mates. However, your job is not done yet. You still have to:

1. Go through the plastic containers

2. Find your madrasah graduation certs

3. Write some letters

4. Make some money

5. Clean up your CV

6. get reacquainted with your calendar, you kind of abandoned it when summer started.

7. establish a new life routine of not sleeping after subuh. and the whole exercise more stuff.

8. write down all the things u wanted to do and plan when to get them done.

Love,

The better part of yourself that is trying to take control over you but the lazy one is just too damn fat and difficult to push away.

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9:37 PM

the time to stick to a decision draws closer. i need to seek the required people.

but maybe, in my heart, I already know what I must do?

ARGH. Truly, I am scared.

I shall now drop this basket of thoughts like laundry that has been too many times wrung over.

I will go revise the poem in which Hugh has expressed interest to see the revision of. And wait anxiously for the email which will announce the venue of our reading for the last usp-piper creative writing class. I hope hope hope it will be somewhere not in NUS. ><

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11:57 PM Friday, June 17, 2011

i'm scared. but i need to break away. may God give me unbroken guidance.

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1:16 AM Thursday, June 9, 2011

don't you think I get jealous. of people who don't have a younger brother at this age. They can just go out as and when they want without having guilt to be home early to play with their baby brother. The constant tuggings. I feel like a mother sometimes too. And even if you tell me, no you're just a sister, being the eldest is like having a big natural tattoo on my palm that says that I'm always responsible and have to think of the younger ones.

It means that I cannot plan for something in the immediate future especially in the holidays, I cannot commit to something when it's not school time because I've spent enough time away from home already, in school. And so I apologise for not accepting all the calls to be facilitators, station masters for all your events. Yeah I would so love to but I would really be have more peace at mind if I could stay at home and help Mak bring Ilhan to the toilet, clean him up when he poo poos, fold the clothes, sweep the floor and have time to read the massive growing list of books that I don't have time to read when it's semester time. I would also rather catch up with the friends that (I'm really sorry to say this) who I so love and adore but have no time or emotional strength for them unless in immediate emergencies during semester time.

But I have no right to be jealous, because this is my blessing and I feel truly blessed. I don't have to be jealous. It's a disease of the heart. The only thing I feel sometimes is burdened. Because the larger society doesn't really understand the importance of being with a family. It's not something to be proud of and there is no tangible economic value attached to it. This is sad. Because the development of members of society all start with good support system from the family.

So, believe it when I say, time is the most expensive thing I can spend on anyone.

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11:47 PM Wednesday, June 8, 2011

yes people come and go. but friends return once in a while to check on you and when you ask for help. what if I have no need of you because of the filth you spew frm your mouth. the filth that is definitely not music to the ears.

if i was pure i would look beyond the garbage that constantly make me wince when i hear you say it, and see your pure heart. I am only learning to live and interact for the sake of God. I've hurt you. I guess it hurts because I've tried to stick up for you when others and yourself made fun of you, but you actually misinterpreted me too.

you've never really known me. and i've never really known you. But did the Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. know everything about everyone? It doesn't matter because he made everyone feel loved and special because he treated everyone like they were the most important person in his life when he talked to them. And it was only through this that everyone loved him.

His qualities and character is something worth striving for.

I am sorry friend, by God's will, InshaAllah you helped me become a better person tonight. Hopefully, I will doa for you tonight, and that I can be a better friend as much as I can help it, to you.

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7:02 PM Tuesday, June 7, 2011

i know there's not much benefit or worth to it. but if I could watch a Big Show in Korea before Big Bang has to disband because they have already grown out of it, if I could watch it... it would make me really really happy.

like a river of smile in the beginning of time across my face.

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1:02 AM Saturday, June 4, 2011

the people in mji are weird if you define them by socially set steorotypes.

this girl plays the guitar. and the guys know how to bake. they don't just know how to, but they actually like it.

caramel.

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