1. Take 2 free days to really organise my room to perfection
- eg: colour code, arrange things according to the years

2. Re-arrange porfolio so it would be easier

2. Bake one thing all on my own
- decide what
- decide when

3. Cook a meal for my family all on my own
- decide what
- decide when

4. Read up on sewing slowly, found a book

5. Make a plan about whether I really want/need to learn how to drive, and if so... how best to do it.

6. Buy family board games

7. Think of how else to enrich Ilhan's growing up years.

"Merry Christmas, evrybody!!!!!^^ Miss u all!

Your majesty,


King Napoli^^"

Aww....
Touches my heart to bits. Haha.
BIG SMILE!

From The Sartorialist.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

by Owl City

"Over the course of the average lifetime you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever. But once in a while someone comes along who earns a permanent place in your heart.“

- The Wonder Years

" If you don’t have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don’t have much at all. Love is so supremely important.“

- Tuesdays With Morrie

"One's philosophy is not best expressed in words; it’s expressed in the choices one makes. In the long run we shape our lives and we shape ourselves. The process never ends until we die. And the choices we make are ultimately our responsibility. "

-Eleanor Roosevelt

"There is a time when we must firmly choose the course we will follow, or the relentless drift of events will make the decision for us.

—	Herbert B. Prochnow

Only trying to make myself busy. Silence, loneliness makes it worse. Working with people so preoccupied with materialistic temporary shallow thoughts makes me feel lonely still.

Lonely darkness makes it worse.

Yesterday, I imagined living eternally with no known end. What would I do? I got scared. Existing existing existing. To live. To die. Dying makes living purposeful. But living for what. Why living? How will things change when you love without any knowledge that you would die one day? Will I still be human? What is this world? What am I supposed to do in this world? The very short time in which we live and do not know when we will be leaving. What happens after I die? What happens when I don't exist? My soul? What would I feel? Will I be asleep for a long time? Not feeling, knowing anything?

The day before I was at the mrt station and so many people were walking to their respective destinations and I felt so lonely.

And now I'm thinking it's a wonder that i'm thinking. How can I be able to think. Why should humans be given the capacity to think and feel?

I'm scared. And I have so many questions.