Yesterday...

Today, I'm happy that Daryl Tan contacted me for the first time in how many light years. Today, I'm happy that Nur Fadilah Jubir came to visit in school. Today, I'm happy that I went home with Nadirah Norrudin. :D And I'm happy that Aminah returned to school. I'm really happy cos of that. Ah I got a confession to make. I KISSED AMINAH's BABY CHEEKS TODAY cos I so happy to see her k (and knowing what she went through) I freaking happy to see her back in school going to lectures strongly. And I missed her a lottttt. Ok don't be jealous I never kiss you on your cheek before.

So many activities.. I don't know what to join.

“ I just want the world to slow down. No, I want the world to stop. Right now. How can time just let things fall apart. Because for me, things fall apart, and they never know how to be put back together. Things will never be put back together. No matter how hard I try, I know I’m going to lose you. You’re one star in a sky of a thousand, but you’re the brightest one, and I know you’ll fade. You’ll fade until I can’t find you anymore. I can’t find you anymore. ”

What if, I don't have a dream?

Ok this is what makes me so astounded twice every week, I've only heard of this concept of Einstein's by name... and wondered about it in a touch and go manner. I'm quite glad I'm taking this module, UNL2201: Time Space Matter. Makes me learn more about the Universe.. makes me understand more about my world, and what I've only read in the Quran about how the universe is constantly expanding, now I know better. But not only the universe, my mind is constantly freaking expanding when I'm in the Seminar Room cos it really takes some time and pondering to wrap my mind around these. Here, have a look see and see if it doesn't blow your mind away. If you don't, ah I guess it's just relativity!





"My dear, here we must run as fast as we can, just to stay in place. And if you wish to go anywhere you must run twice as fast as that" -From Alice in Wonderland.

This module makes me run like the Roadrunner.... BEEP BEEP.

Imma just stick w my homies. The tried and tested methods are always the best innit?

Ultimately, we have just one moral duty: to reclaim large areas of peace in ourselves, more and more peace, and to reflect it towards others. And the more peace there is in us, the more peace there will be in our troubled world.

Etty Hillesum, 1914-1943

Why do I remember the moment that you first popped into my life? Why can't I remember this moment for other people?
Is it a real memory or is it a created history?
Was it repeated reinforcement?
Will this happen again?

Why do I get so affected by how the world works and how it doesn't? Nature's law amaze me so. I agree with Isaac Newton. He can predict the movement of the heavens but he cannot predict the crowds.

Sometimes I wonder what kind of friendship this.... because it's so apparent that we don't make an effort anymore... and it's so obvious that you don't really care anymore... I don't believe that this primary school drama is happening in this college age.

Sec school subjects:

Phy/Chem, Mathematics, Additional Mathematics, SS/Geog, History

JC Subjects:

Maths, Lit, Geog, Econs

Uni modules so far:

Time Space Matter (Physics & Math)
Nature of Language (English Linguistics)
Arabic
Intercultural Communication
Communication, New Media and Society.



Damn stressed. Ok so I've been taking Math till now. Should I continue doing Lit cos I've been quite good in it...but it's so subjective and not really tangible.


What I really want is:
Film/Culture Studies.


and there's only a Cultural Studies minor in NUS. hehehe. I think I'll just take as many film modules as possible.

And once again.... I feel lost... if I am on the right educational/intellectual path...

What major should I take?

Am I headed towards the right majors?

Have I made the right decision thus far?

too busy. and too many superficial things. how do we know what we shall fight for? how do we know who to fight for?

1. Nice guys are the good to have around. But Sincere guys are the best. Every action, every word that comes out of their mouth. Sincerity is the best policy. Even if just for that flick of moment, I forgot your name.

“ There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it. ” From 'I Dare You To Click This'.

When I feel the urge to shop, I will just clean up my wardrobe.

That having said, I feel that I need to pay a visit to the following:

1. Dorothy Perkins
2. Cache Cache
3. Giordano
4. Forever 21
5. My Flip Flop Shop
6. Level 2 of East Point Mall again.
7. Times the Bookstore
8. Popular
9. Bata




When is my 1K bursary from the police coming in? :( :( :(

Dear You,

I hope your decision in the past was in no way affected by the past path which I wanted to take because even though it was current at that time, it was not confirmed. I hope you did not choose something based on another path that was not cut out so clearly. I hope you chose it because you sincerely and passionately wanted to take that path. I do detest making an important life changing choice just because of someone else other than yourself and I know you did it once. It turned out badly and I hope you learnt your mistake. I wish for you not to make the same mistake again. Still you can change it. I hope you were sure and I want to believe that you like that path. That path in which you will be walking on.

I'm telling you today I will not be treading on the same path I thought I would be. Because I will be living the yearning of my heart. The subconscious desire of my mind and my soul.

I will be at peace knowing that I have chosen wisely and that you have chosen wisely too.

Again, I hope that you followed the better organ.

Love,
Me.