"According to this myth, the gods tie an invisible red string around the ankles of men and women who are destined to be soul mates and will one day marry each other. The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break."

I could make a funny video out of this.

"If you try anything, if you try to lose weight, or to improve yourself, or to love, or to make the world a better place, you have already achieved something wonderful, before you even begin. Forget failure. If things don’t work out the way you want, hold your head up high and be proud. And try again. And again. And again."

"You gradually get over the pain. It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes easier to live with. One morning you wake up, and he’s not the first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line, you realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of him. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes years, but eventually you reach a point when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, and you try not to think about them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone unexpected mentions their name and the memories come flooding back. But memories also become less painful in time."

"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst I think. when the secret stays locked within, not for want of a teller but for an ear."

- Stephen King

"I’ve always followed my heart instead of my head. I’ve always jumped, always took that leap of faith into the unknown, having no idea of what the outcome of my actions would be. But now, now it’s clear. I need to stop following my heart. I just need to stop, before I do anything at all. I need to stop and think about it, about what I am about to do. I need to think about whether it is right or it is wrong. Because when you follow your heart, you lose track of what’s right and what’s wrong and it tears you apart."

It is what you do in the absence of others that reflect your true self, for what you do will only be in the eyes of God.

1. if i major in cnm, i need to take another social science exposure module. hrmm what should i take eh? Geog or Political Science. hahah :)

You know what, Sociology and Anthropology is so difficult. All these concepts in different manifestations and combinations and permutations. Mind bending I tell you. Studying Popular Culture in Southeast Asia in terms of producers and audience. And how the audience becomes a commodity for producers. And how this shifts again to make the audience the producers instead of the consumers in this relationship. Set against a backdrop of, muay thai, football (as in soccer), k-pop, Sushi, karoake, soap operas, Cantopop, Indonesian cinema, Phillipene and Thai beauty contests, Dick Lee's musical compositions, the mat-minah equivalent in Thailand. All these are very interesting yes but I must think of them in terms of negotiated identities, cultural commodities, financial economy, producer, text, audience, discourse against dominant ideologies. Basically, studying popular culture to understand society, to understand people. Well, it's really not as easy as it sounds like. But is sure interesting.

words that have been carefully arranged.

Sometimes I wonder... all the readings that we do, all the extended thesis and complications of arguments, though are super wowifying, did they have any salient impact in the real world. hmms.

major in sea minor in cnm?

when do you think i'll get over this?

hahaha I found this here.

The Study Prayer

Now I lay me down to study,
I pray the Lord I don’t go nutty,
And if I fail to learn this junk,
I pray the Lord I do not flunk,
And if I die, don’t bury me at all,
Just lay my bones in the study hall,
And pile my books upon my chest,
And tell my profs I did my best,
So now I lay me down to rest,
And pray I pass tomorrow’s test,
And if I die before I wake,
That’s one less test I’ll have to take.

by Denise Figueroa
Northeastern University, School of Law

I woke up late and I couldn't study. I dislike myself for waking up late. So I went to Tampines 1 and what did I see? Well besides him, I saw sales and sales because of Good Friday. Wait last Friday was... Good Friday is it? And this Friday is... Labour Day? Anw, holidays don't affect me much right. Cos I am on a study break and I am supposed to be studying :D Yesterday was a great study day and so let's repeat that today.

BUT. Topshop had what... 20% discount on that silk shirt and I really want it. 0.0 And 40% discount on 2nd piece. And Cache Cache had 20% storewide discount. AHHH. As much as I am quite the frugal, thinking and thinking over about what I need and what I do not need, can't help thinking about how pretty those pieces are. And how versatile. And how long it would last.

I saw you just now

There are those times when I read something, or come across something. And I feel so insecure about my life in this world. I get so insecure that I don't believe in where I am now. I don't believe I can succeed in this life even if I am in a good reputable university in Singapore and in Asia. Even when I am in THAT programme. Because I didn't know there was such thing as that kind of strategy. It starts when you pick modules. You have to strategise unless you're a super genius. And I feel like because of this ONE semester... I lost a chance. And I really have to pull it up THIS semester because I'll never get that chance again... and I scare myself thinking of all the chances I am going to lose.Take a listen.

I can do this.

Ya Allah,

hahaha how exciting.

I feel like telling you everything
talking until
my words aren’t a part of me anymore,
and suddenly they are not my problem
and I am free.



but I'm scared you'll take it wrongly.
like it happened before.

Trying to remember you
is like carrying water
in my hands a long distance
across sand. Somewhere people are waiting.
They have drunk nothing for days.

Your name was the food I lived on;
now my mouth is full of dirt and ash.
To say your name was to be surrounded
by feathers and silk; now, reaching out,
I touch glass and barbed wire.
Your name was the thread connecting my life;
now I am fragments on a tailor’s floor.

I was dancing when I
learned of your death; may
my feet be severed from my body.

Things that I shall do now before I sleep at 12am, Tuesday 22nd.

i hate it when music is supposed to unite music lovers but it turns into a competition of who loves the artist of that more.

Ilhan has not gone to school for more than a week. First it was eye ear infection. Now it's a suspected case of the Chicken Pox. And I have never had chicken pox too.

Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah! I just received my very first A+ for an essay which is 25% of my SE1101e Southeast Asia, A Changing Region module. The comment goes like this: "An extremely well written and researched paper with really strong sources. Wonderful job!" I still have my exam which is 40% of the grade. I can do this. I can get an A for this module. Come on Safiah!!!!!!

"Seek (beneficial) knowledge, because seeking it for the sake of Allah is a worship. And knowing it makes you more God-fearing; and searching for it is jihad, teaching it to those who do not know is charity, reviewing and learning it more is like tasbeeh. Through knowledge Allah will be known and worshipped." — Ibn Taymiyya

I will remember that. Because a lot of times, studying is inertia. And reviewing is inertia. And there are days wear I get so demoralised when I'm studying and I think I'm the only one. No no, non, tidak, bu shi!



From here:


"My son, when you pray, do it like a person who is bidding farewell to this world, and don’t assume you will have another chance to pray again. My son, know that a believer dies in between two deeds, one he offers for today, where he will get immediate blessings, and the second deed is what he offers towards the day of resurrection, and that is where he will gain the ultimate benefits." — Muadh Ibn Jabal (radiAllahu anhu)


I Got this off frm zahgaf.tumblr.com. And I refuse to re-join tumblr! :Dd

Mr Yeo taught me not to work on weekends.
Weekends is 'me' time and 'family' time.

Because of this, I can never work properly during the weekends.

May Allah grant me a full 100% recharge now so that I can start working properly tomorrow.

And Alhamdulillah, Doc Lo has extended the deadline by a full 8hours.

Camping at NUS lib/ NLB starts tmr :)

Bismillah.

I must not lose faith in myself and I pray for others to have faith in me too. I hope my family can show me support because they think I can do fine by my own...

1. Increasingly, I find that I feel unhappy and unsatisfied when I indulge in aimless lepaking. Where there is no clear direction, or set direction to achieve something like taking my mind off things, or to foster the bonds between friends. I like bonding over eating. And I like bonding while doing meaningful activities like going to new places. But I don't like bonding over just talking. I don't really like spending/investing my time with things that are not valuable. Talking about things that you can't remember the following week.

What I try to do is not to give any significance to things like those. I try to put up a brave face. Feign ignorance. Pretend I did not see. But people say I look blur when I do that. Because when you ignore you don't have to take action. It's good to ignore potentially bad things but definitely don't ignore the things that you need to take action. What I mean is things that can lead you to sinful behaviours. Things like when someone is obviously flirting with you. You stop yourself from reacting or calling out that behaviour because you don't want to make it awkward and because you are not ready to get into a relationship with anyone at this stage. So I behave in that way, the middle way. A way that says " I like being your friend and a good friend at that but beyond that I leave to Allah and I don't want to have anything now anyways". And I keep asking God to guide me and to help me be strong. Because sometimes, when you love a brother or a sister because of Allah, you don't take action. And that's it. You'll feel better when you do that. Your strength and persistence show how much you love your friend. And if he does not realise it or she, then it's okay, it's fine, you tell youreself, because Allah knows. And that is all that matters.

I am sorry.

girl:

i want to nominate the following people for exco:

Why must technology just FAIL YOU at important times?

HAISH.

I just want to know what you think of me.

Argh. The LOW is so utterly strict and straight isn't he. And so uptight about himself.

haish. i really want A. but B is getting too close.

what is the meaning of friendship when the one time i felt wholly understood, it turned superbly good and then i lost it. it can never be brought back.

I'd like to say thank you.

it doesn't matter, because I'm here... and you're there.

Dear World,

Hello.
I write because I want to remember today.

Hello.