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It'd would be good if you really do understand that being friends is all that I want. And you seem to understand. Without having awkward feelings between us. Who cares what others imply eh? Sometimes I really would like to have an Abang figure in my life. Sometimes, my cousins come into my life and act like that. But this repressed unknowing feeling, claws itself out of my being without me knowing. And that is how I act. I act like 'I want an Abang in my life can you be it'. But i have never fed it because I've always been the actor, the leader, and the only person I depend on. Instead, I try to provide for others because of this birthright. So I don't know. But now I know.

So for now I only would like the Big Brother roles in my life. I am not ready for the others. Unless you are sincere and knock on my door and ask. Like literally knock on my door.

Thank you for being so kind.

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and lastly.... though horoscopes are just a bunch of nonsense... but I cannot deny that Zodiacs are quite true! It's so freaky sometimes how it's so true :/