like waiting for tomorrow that comes so slowly.

like the craving for chocolate and finding none in the house.

and it's too late to go out to buy them.

like when I see ants happening to pass by.

but because I took a guide's oath at the age of thirteen,

I am always a guide, even if I was only a guide for two months.

And I swore not to hurt a living soul. Even if they took the form

of a six legged insect.

I think.

like forgetting to take a deep breath.

like wanting to slap back with words

the voices that did not think

the voices that did not feel

the voices that failed to see.

I am cranky why?

because of inefficiency.

because of impudence

and laziness

and because of indifference

like Elie Wiesel said.

the opposite of love is not hate.

it is indifference.

because of qualities I do not

want to

associate with

me.

I am being indifferent now to some

I do not care for some.

It is this stage of indifference.

Just as Elie Wiesel said.