Haiz... so behind readings...

I am close to many people. But it's not a bad thing. Because different people make different emotional aspects of me happy lei. No man is and island. And I am so interested in things that you're not interested in. And I am in a situation which you're not in. So I have to find people on my own.

And you weren't there at every single moment of my life, and neither is anyone I know but all of the people I am close to, including you, they know important bits and pieces of me that they keep really well. Do you want to rethink again why you are close to me? I know, now, you're beginning to think that I've changed... Survival of the Fittest. People change to survive. But you're still my friend. I am still a friend to you. I still care about your wellbeing. Which is why I don't like that you don't tell me how you're feeling and if you need help. And I'm dissapointed when you say we're close. We're supposed to be close. But you pushed me away when I offered to help. And you don't even know that I'm in USP. You didn't ask me how school was for me. What were you looking for actually? Whatever you needed was there... you just approached it in the wrong way.

Saying that just made me feel like Lord Voldemort, making Hocruxes. Instead of objects I use people... but doesn't everyone leave an impression, an image, a memory of themselves in other people?

I realise that praying together as a Jemaah regularly with a group of friends really somehow makes us closer. There's just that bond. It makes you love them no matter their flaw. It's because you love them because of Allah, because of God. I just realised this. That's how I feel with my MJI clique. That's why we always meet up more than once a month. We just like being around each other but we don't really know why. We like to make each other happy, we like to make each other laugh. We don't like it when bad things happen between us. Or to us. And we will support each other all the way if those things do.

Please rethink your opinion.

Because it hurt me.

But ah well, I guess that's your opinion and your life to live.

I'm actually really happy with mine right now. Are you happy with yours?