And suddenly I realised, that although I've built my path, my choices, I still have a long way to go. And I'd like to decide on them, figure things out. There's still so many things I owe myself to do. And it doesn't matter if there's no one who'd like to do it with me. I can do it on my own.

I'm just scared that I'll leave some people behind.

And then I remember, if they are right ones, they will come, they will make the effort, they will be around. I just have to make sure that they know they can approach me anytime.

It's not that bad now. Really.

It's just that we made a promise not to do something. But there was no talk of what to do instead. It's this stage of life where we are all still concentrating on our individual lives. I should have listened to my mum. But it might not have changed anything.