it's a freaking burden when you're the best at technology compared to the rest of your family.
every single thing.
EVERY SINGLE THING.

they ask you to do it.

And I can't even balance this with my studies, and my on-the-side extras.

and I get frustrated.

Especially when it's that time of the month. It's even more tiring.

And I have to be patient and smile and say I can do it when I'm on a freaking short fuse?

Cos of Allah. Cos I will be rewarded and have a higher chance of getting into Paradise.

Who says the price of paradise is cheap.

this is freaking difficult to do.

especially when I have a headache and I just spent the afternoon folding clothes and clearing the study room and your dad just blasted at you saying you slept the whole afternoon.

I slept for an hour cos I woke up early.

We tried to take a photo of Ilhan. We tried. But the proportions weren't right. His eyes weren't looking straight. He was wearing the wrong shirt according to my mum so he changed to a collared shirt. He was hungry and he wanted to eat. Then his mouth was dirty.

AND then EVERYONE got angry.

And the sun is setting down as I type.

stupid. This is stupid.