it is the feeling of not being good enough.

it is the feeling of never being good enough.

it is the feeling of insecurity.

it is this stupid feeling that gnaws you from the inside.

a burden

like a big stone stopping the flow of water in a river

agh

agh

agh

who are you

who are you

you are no one.

you shouldn't have been singled out in the beginning.

you shoudn't have been given this identity.

you're not strong enough to hold it.

you can't bear it.

what is the meaning of this.

i could have left it alone.

i will leave it alone.

i should leave it alone.

i need to leave it alone.

it doesnt mean anything

and it doesn't add up to anything.

does it hold any value for you?

you see the past letting go.

you see the future having a no-show.

you see the present being a mix and muddle of concepts,

not clearly held on to.

you're just stupid

so stupid.

and no one can understand you.

even if they wanted to.