But I got to deal w the sorting hat first.

Listening to my playlist does me a deal of good.

One feeling blocks my whole living process, messes up my decision making, makes me let down the people who shouldn't be let down, makes me please the ones who don't matter...that much. I didn't realise that I still feel this way. That yearning, the unintentional search... since when did I become this pathetic? Finding comfort in the company of others hoping that it would replace that feeling? Why? Why? Will it be better when i hit the half-way mark? Will it be better then? I think I just have to realise that I just HAVE to live with this feeling till God shows me the way. I can't help but to wait around for something that's not going to ever pop up. Keeping my phone close by me... argh. Pathetic. And how long has it been since..? Just have to hope that it becomes less significant than it already has become now...

I feel disappointed of people... people I haven't even met yet. Is that possible?

Sometimes, I'm too nice for my own good. And I haven't really learnt to say NO to more subtle things. (no drugs and ciggies are not part of it).

Guess it all boils down to the normal adaptation routine I go through when I settle in a new educational institute.

I shall henceforth, listen more to that gut feeling... and give it more significance.

I totally hate fake sincerity (ironic much) so don't go and fool me with it.