Too little time.
Bad organisation.
Bad decision making.
No conscious presence.
Bad luck?
No fate?
So much time.
No plans.
Too lazy?
Not healthy enough.
No fate?
I really wish I could have gone to the dinner. :( :( :( :( A MILLION :( I really want to talk to Jeannette!!! And W and J and C and R and JY and V and S!!!!!!! talk to them without the tiredness of....CAMP.
I guess things STILL haven't changed since I wasn't oetoriya.
S would be "so proud of me". I'm already asking Nas to give me some wake up slaps tomorrow. I'm letting precious available time flow so easily, so easily. I know this yet still I let it go.Haiz, an old friend contacted me to ask me to work with his company. WHAT's THAT YOU SAY? Work with HIS COMPANY! ? ! ? Hello. Hello. Hello. I do not have a diploma, I have not interned at any place except with the.... GOVERNMENT, Safe places, safe and top to bottom places, where I was the one who followed instructions. I only have A levels. Academic A levels. The ones tt make your brain heavier. I haven't learnt decision making. I'm BAD at decision making. SEE ABOVE. WHAT ?! ?! ?! I'm not ready for this. This is the THIRD time someone asked me to work with them on a managerial level and I'm turning it down. WHY? WHY? WHY? Cos I don't believe in myself. I still feel like a kid. I do. I do. I do. WTH.
WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THE MEANING OF THIS GOD? What is the purpose of you putting this idea into my little friend's head and coming up with this scheme? I'm not complaining I'm just not used to this wrinkle in the scheme of things. I'm not supposed to work on a managerial level now... It's supposed to happen... LATER. People say... focus on studies first! How am I gna juggle that work, FAMILY, and maintaning a 3.5 (or possibly, HIGHER) CAP! Plus CCA which I am intending to join to enrich myself culturally.
BAH. Dear God... you really made me at a loss of words now... Should I just be grateful? Ok yes, I am grateful. Of course I am.... I just don't know what to do.... Oh this is really throwing me off the plan I had in mind....
BUSINESS?
When in the world did I want to be in BUSINESS?
I want an ethically correct business.
A creative business.
A Bling Bling business was not what I had in mind...
Oh but the money... I could use the money...
Ah well.. mb I'll talk to more people about it first. And see what that friend has to say.
